I know my last several letters to you have been in high spirits, but today, today I felt a little bit defeated. Not every day is going to be a good day, that’s what they say. Today was that kind of day. My hopes have been high these last several weeks as I worked to get my life in order and more balanced. You know the feeling you have when you think everything is coming together. The feeling when things were promised to you. The feeling when you are on cloud nine, but then out of that same cloud comes a burst of rain, thunder, and lightning. Within minutes, even seconds everything can go wrong.
Sis, today that’s the way I feel. Is it okay to be honest with you? Is it okay that not every letter I write to you will be uplifting? Is it okay that I am not always the one encouraging? Sometimes I need to be encouraged and I don’t always have the strength to encourage myself. I wish I didn’t feel this way. I wish I didn’t make disappointments affect me so. However, that’s the way I feel right now. Well, tomorrow is another day and I am quite sure it will be a better day. I am even more sure that you understand and you care.